Angrophobia

Angrophobia - Fear of anger or of becoming angry.

When I was little, I had this anger problem that I couldn't really control. Nobody really knew about it except for me. Let me tell you of an example. I would sit and do my math homework, but then suddenly I wouldn't understand one of the problems. I would look at it again and again. I would sit there and think, "UGH. I can't do this!", and become very angry and upset with myself. I could feel the heat burning up my face as my cheeks would grow red. My eyebrows would scrunch up as more and more things would agitate me. My pencil would probably break and I'd throw it across the room. It's possible that if the paper weren't all that important that I might have just crumpled up the paper very tightly between my hands. Tears would fall from my eyes. I'd grip on to something tightly and scream with my mouth closed. I didn't want anybody to know that I was angry. After a few moments I'd calm down, but soon after I'd have a nervous break down. I'd start bawling wondering why I act like this and why I can't just do a simple math problem. When that happened, all of my problems would just cloud my brain and I'd scream and cry for moments on end. Overtime I learned to handle my anger problem better. I learned to actually calm down and soon I'd be happy again. However, even though I don't really have frequent temper tantrums now, it took me a while to become this way. I've broken closets, beds, patio stairs, papers, clothing, my hair, bottles, and much more. So this problem I had when I was younger--it doesn't mean anything...right?